:__(

huhu

i just dunno why

tonite

i feel such lame

such dissapointed

to myself

i feel weak

i feel useless

im streesss

so muchh with all the c0ndition

happenin in my life rite now
huhu

i try to b happy

but i just cant

i try so hard

to da point that

i cant stand it anym0re

im

full the nite with teardr0ps

that is so hard for me

as a pers0n to cry

i never cry
for things like these
what happenin t0 me

huhu

i just streess all day

arghhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
God please help me!

tenangkan hati sy

agar dapat meneruskan kehidupan sebagai hamba mu ini

huhu

saya tau semuanya ini adalah cabaran duniawi
yang sepatutnya seorg manusia tempuhi

huhu

k la

i think i shud take my nap n0w

huhu

h0pe a better day tomorrow as i wish for
Amen

.m"T"b.

 

_ne satu team penari time mtb tu_

haha

semasa aku tgh b0ring m"hadap laptop

asus aku ne..aku check la..

msuk folder picha2 aku ne..

tup3..

jumpa picha2 ne

wkakaak..

ketwa terbahak2 aku nengok..

haha.

persoalannya 

apekah picha2 tersebut..

jeng3

hehe..

picha2 time aku join  

Malam Tunas Budaya(MTB)

Tema time tu

"1 MaLaysia"

masa semester pertama dlu khas utk junior2 yg bru masuk

d upm..hehe

kenapa aku join??

haha.

sebab actually mula2 suka2.

tp sekali.

fuh..

jadi minat plak..

actually kitorg kena menari hahahaha..

bdan aku dahla keras cam kayu..

nak d lembut plak tu..

mula2 practice lembam lutut2 n sengal2 pinggang..haha

tp bestt arr..

tp part yg nak share ne..

paling aku xminat n xnak lagi la terlibat.

part "mekap"..

ad000ii..

sengsara gila..

mcmana pompuan2 ne hidup dgn benda2 alah tu..

sengal..

hahaha

nak kat 2 jam aku kena duduk dan di mekap kan..

mula2 ingat nak letak foundation ja..

alih2..letak lip gloss..

eye liner..pemerah pipi lgi..celak..maskara jagn ketinggalan plakk..

arghh..

part nak pkai maskara la aku xtahan..

huhu

ni sebelum mekap tau..encem jak

1

2

3

arghh..sape nie..huhu..ni la mak nyah yg dikatakan tu..wkakaka.cam pompuan siott

sakit dowh..smpai tercucuk2 bijik mata aku..

hasilnya..

aku jalan pg tndas time nak tukar bju..

bngga jugala pompuan semua tgk aku..

yg xble blahh..

lelaki pun tgk juga senyum2 lagik.

adoii..

ape dah jadi dgn muka ku..

skali tgk cermin kat tndas..

mak nyah maner plak ne.

arghhh..

mcm pompuan plak mekap aku..

hahahahahahah

 

ngan partner nari..liwi..hehe 

 

lepas persembahan..wkakakaka release

aku tgk kwn2 laki aku yg len pon same.

lawak3

hahaha

tp mekap2 ne jugala kitaorg juara keseluruhan tau..

kami rakul 8 anugerah..

termasuk la

anugerah tarian terbaek..

mantap la..

hehe

time tu pun penari2 kmi 12 org jak

termasuk aku..haha

bngga juga la kn..

tahun depan nak join lagikk

hehehe

best jugala

tp kalo ada mekap2 juga..huhu

kena fikir dua kali la ne..hahah

k enjoy some of the picha k

yg picha cam mak nyah tu

abaikan..

wakakkaka..

 ni plak ngan timothy..partner menari juga

: P

P/s : nak gtau gak..persembahan kitorg mlm tu kuar kat TV3 rancangan MHI..hehe.. n kuar news gak..:P

.Ring.

t0day after i wake up

fr0m my bed as Usual..

i realise sumtin is not rite..

i feel

sumtin missin n i was rite.

my ring is missin..

huhu

where it g0ne..

i try to find it everywhere from the bathroom until to the living r00m..

but couldt find it.

where is it?..

my mo0d bec0me so much d0wn..

bcause of the ring..

i realy care b0ut it..arghhhh..

but..

then i remember.

Myb it under my bed..

n my instict was rite..it was under my bed...

huhu

finally i found u..

huhu..

why i so much care with this ring..

actually ada cerita sebaliknya..

hurmm

huhu..

cincin nie actually cincin yg sy beli sendiri 

n it is silver..

i like silver bcos its simple n nice..

n ianya ada dua..

huhu

the sad part..

huhu..

actually..

cincin ne i buat untuk sy dan my syg..

arghhh..

sempat ada ukir nama lagik 

kat cincin tu..

"baby Love Syg"

kalo sy xsilap..

sy beli cincin ne kat The mines..

entala time tu jalan2 ja..but suddenly rasa nak beli cincin pla

so 0n that time juga pg cari n beli..

hurmmm..

but..

myb jodoh xpnjng kn..

sebelum sy bagi cincin tu kat dia..

the day yg i nak bgtau dia yg i nak bg dia cincin.

dia tinggalkn sy..

huhu..

and its happen twice..

arghh.

apa ble buat..

hurmm

but i still wear this ring until now..

from the 1st time i bought it..

i never kuarkn from my jari.

i dunno why..

myb bcause its my 1st time buying a ring..

or myb i just have hope for it.

i just h0pe that time 

dia dpt wear cincin ne..

huhu

but.

now the ring to sumone else..

wit my ex..

i told that supya dia just pakai cincin tu..

but i think dia simpan je cincin tu kot..

and until now.

i dunno what happen to the ring..

huhu.

everyday when i wake up from my bed..

the 1st thing i do.

make sure that the ring is at my finger.

it my s0ul..

huhu.

i just care b0ut it.

myb i still care for the pers0n..

huhu.. 

k la...gTg.

bubye..

heee.

:)

."U".

hurmm..

i dunno what to say

but its about sumtin 

in my mind..

that related with feelins

huhu..

its hard to explain into words

but yah..

most probably

i missin sumone that have been in my life

i dunno why

its hard for me to forget the pers0n

although i 0redy forCe myself to m0ve 0n anD forget it

huhu

myb its true that i still love the pers0n s0 much

t0 the p0int that it hard for me to f0rget the mem0ries 

between Us..

But i cherishh all the m0ments that we been throUgh

the laughter,the Love,the saddness

i n0e its not ur fault..

untiL this day

i owez think of the pers0n 

instead f0cusing in my studies

BUt..

do U really imp0rtant t0 me

"?"

this question mark

owez running in my head

haizz

chriz what u thinkin

u shud m0ve 0n

leave all this shit away

yahh

that i owez saiD to myself when i think b0ut it

but as human being n more fiercely have a heart

that like a "rock"

its hard..

just hard

but i noe it depend to me

whatever it is 

i just neeD t0 move 0n..

actually i have no friends

that i think suit to talk b0ut this matter to them

its kind of c0mplicated 

i h0pe this feelin will not last l0nger

n 

m0re important thing

i hav my 0wn syg

s0 i need t0 foCus 0n her

rather thinkin  b0ut thiss

huhu

i just wrote this because "Blog" is the 0nly medium

that can express my feelins when there is no one to talk to..

it quite hard to understand though..

hurmm

but anyway

life must Go 0n..

there are long journey ahead 0f Us..

i just need to f0cus what im d0in now.

n 

most important thing

enjoy God's Life

Amen.

hehe..

.assigment+exam=demam.

tula kesudahan nya lepas busy dgn assignment yg bertimbun2

last2 sakit juga yg dtg..

haizz

sy demam huhu..

mula2 sakit sore throat..

rase tekak ne mcm ader dawai besi je kat dlm..

huhu..

mmg dah agak dah nak rasa demam

cUaca skg ne p0n xmenentu

kejap hujan kejap panas terik

lebi2 lagik kat KL ne

argghhh..

tp part2 yg sy paling xsUka

part demam ne la..

kalo boleh sa snguup sakit mata ka

dari demam ne..

P/s: kenapa plak sakit mata mjadi pilihan..tettt~~.wakaka

tula pasal

xsuka la demam sebab kalo sy demam

suma keja xleh buat..

bdn rsa sengal sgt..

jd pemalas tahap gaban la..huhuhu

dahla xder family kat sini..

huhu

kalo dulu if i demam

msti my mumy yg jaga i

bkn manja tp my mumy mmg c0ncern sgt

if anak2 dier sakit

besala naluri ibu kn..

lebi2 lagik i nie anak b0ngsuu..

hehe

lagik la upgrade skit kerisauan my mumy tue

entala..

bila jak my mumy kol me kan

msti dia ckp nape suara i laen..

sakit ke

i ckp xla..

padahal i rasa sehat je..

skg dah sakit brula rasa nak kol mumy..huhuhu

kejam nye sy..

bkn pa..busy la dgn assigment

dgn exam2 ne lagikk

rasa stresss yg melampau sgt

huhu

smpai pada satu tahap tu 

aku rsa nak mgalir kan air mata jak

but i kena tabah..

sy yg nak smua ne.

so i kena teruskan juga..

Tabah kan hati!!

yeahhh..

hehe..

nak citer juga mei ne 

sy xdpt balik sabah

huhu

sangat kecewa
uwaaaaa....
:__(

sb may ne byk dah sy dah plan

nak jadi

fasilitator kat matrikulasi labuan

utk batch2 bru masukk

nak ikut camping belia

nak rayakan kaamatan lagikk

all xleh

dis sebabkan 

praktikal yg stupid tu..

adekah kmi 

student 1st year 

dah ader praktikal

asas pun xkuat dah nak ader praktikal

dahla praktikal tu sebulan

stupid tull

xpuas hati langsongg

harap2 la cancel last2 minute

dah la bgtau time 

yg mgejut jak

without any hints

abes ticket kapal aku hngus

huhuhu

xpela

sy sabar jela

al things happen 

with a reason kan

so i take it..

huhu

 k la

need to take my rest odyy..

im in the m00d of

sick..

:(

chow

.Ukm+Putrajaya=Mantops!.(part 2)

nie nak masukkn gmbr2 ktorg ambek..

hehe

enjoy..

ni gmbr alyah mase jumpe dier kat karnival tue..

 

  

  

  

  

  

  

 

 

.Ukm+Putrajaya=Mantops!.

haha..wahhh..ari ne best giler arr..

ne nak ceta ne..hehe..

excited je kan..

actually ari ne ktorg group titas ngan grup tierah..

ktorg ader interview dgn Dr.Nizam..

pensyarah subjek Kenegaraan ktorg mase sem 1 dlu..

ktorg nak interview dier pasal..

assignment hubungan etnikk..

bestt arrr Dr.Nizam sempoii je dierr

Mesra plak tue..haha..dapt la ape dier terangkan kat ktorg..

hehe.

and tu jugala aku smpai ke UKM..

1st impression aku dgn ukm..

OLDIES..haha

bkn aperr..Ukm sgt macm bgunan lama2 tau..

tp yg penting byk org2 terkenal n berjaya..

hasil keluaran UKM..

n prestasi nyer sgt cemerlang n merupakan 3 universiti terbaek kat Msia.

wow.hehe

lepas habis je interview..ktorg gerak pg Putrajaya..

best giler arr kat situ..haha..sgt2 bestt..aku blown away by the building yg 

ader kat putrajaya..sgt menakjubkan la..aku terasa berada kat New York plakk..

mmg bestt arr..

kat situ plak aderr plak karnival wow!..

aper lagik ktorg singgah arrr..

bestt arr..

jumpe alyah plak kat situ tgh recording..

HITS 1..

jeng2..haha

terkejut juga aku tgk Alyah ne..

ape tidaknya..kat tv besar je org nya..

kat depan2 live plak tue kecik giler arrr...

tp bestt arr persembahan dier..

org kecik mcm tue bleh kuarkan suara yg besar n tinggi..

ktorg jalan2 kat karnival tue..

mcm2 arr nampak..

habis2 je ktorg balik gerak pg TAman warisan plak..

nak pg mkn dowhh..

perut dah bunyi2 dah ne..

huhu

Standard giler arr tempat mkn dier..

tempat mkn tue..area tmpat tinggal

Timbalan perdana menteri dowhh..

standard arr..haha

mkan2 jap..lepak2..

then balik..

tp overall best giler arr..

aku suka tgk area putrajaya..

mantap giler arr..

ohya..ktorg sempat bergmbr kat jambatan putrajaya tue..

cntek permandangan kat sna..

so sesapa tue..

melawat2 la kat Putrajaya..

u will blown away!..

haha

.chow.

.Cny+Valentine=AssIgNment.

huh..ape jer aku buat mase semester break

ni la nak citer ne

huhu.tp mmg boring gila gaban si0t..

1st day cuti tue je..

aku 0nline smpai xingat dunia.

haha..0n9 dr pagi smpai la mlm..

mkn pun xingat dowh.

assiGnment smua di lupakan mcm xder je..

padahal berlambak giler..

masi berbaris lagik tu tgu nak di siapkan..

Entala nie la jadinye kal0 kemalaSaN dah melanda diri.

2nd day plak..

haha..aku bertekad rajin kon0nnye..

pg library taw..wkakaka..

smpai kat library 0n9 la gamaknya..wkaka

chriz2 ape dah kena dgn ko nie..

assignment berlambak je tue..

tettt..

P/s: chriz ne suka buat keje last2 minute..tu la dier!

 library PSAS UPM

haha..

sempat lagik kan..xlama kat library tu sb dah jumpe buku

yg aku nak so chow arr..

balik2 bilik tdo..

then mlm on9 lagikk..

haha..i luvin my life.!..

yeahh..

3rd day..

jeng2..time utk berjimBos..

haha..

dgn bestie aku grace tu..ader je

aku post kat bwa ne gmbr2 ktorg..hehe

best giler arr..xpernah aku

jalan sejauh dan sebnyk itu..

tp puas arr..

hehe

 mse kat kfc b.bintang

4rd sterusnye,

cam besa bgun..

jam 1 lebi..besa arr..xder keja

kononnyer..assignmnt masi lagik..

tersusun rapi belum di siapkan..

hahaa..

gelak aku tgk assignment yg tersusun tue.

tp aper nak buat..

kalo xder m00d nak buatkn..

kita kena enjoy dlam setiap

benda yg kita buat..

xble rase tpksa..hehe

chewahh..haha

lepas men tenis ngan mereka..haha

5th..

haha..aku start dah insaf..

apekah!!!..

dah nak habis cuti..bru ko insaf 

chrizz..

ish2..bru nak tercari2 pen n buku2..

tp siap juga arr setengah assignment aku..hehe

n smpt gak men tenis ngan kwn2 aku ne..

aku xtau men tenis..tp belasah je.

wkakaka..

oh ya..

jgn d lupakn kuar..

ngan abg muzaimy gak..

thankx bro..

k la nak smbung buat

UNFINISHEd ASSIGNMENT

~daaa

 

Kepada Kyoo REza : ni la keta BMW tueee..hehe..:P

.6 places 2 pers0n.

haha..apekah..hehe..6 places 2 pers0n..

ne nak citer ne..15.02.2010..haha..my great time 0ut wit my bestie grace...

mmg best giler arr..xpernah aku jejalan kat kl bgini byk tmpat aku ronda..

mula2 ktorg meet kat kl sentral..smpai je kl sentral..

ktorg jalan kaki pg kl monorail..

1st stop..Berjaya Times Square..hahaa..lame dowh xg tmpat ne..best arr..

like owez..bju2 kat sni murah2 sgt2..smpaikn bestie aku tu rmabang mata..

hahahhahaa..

 

  

 

jejalan jap kat BTS..ktorg chow pg Lowyat plak.sb grace nak beli mp3 katenya..

so jejalan kat lowyat cari mp3.xder kot byk kedai yg tutup lagik..

so..lepas pg lowyat chow pg.. sungei wang plak..nak g mkan kat situ..dah lame xdtg situ kot..rindu sgt2..huhhu

smpai kat sungei wang kitorg lepak kat kfc mkn lar..lapar yg tersagt lapar la..

tp ne nak komplen ne..KFC kat area changkat bukit bintang tue..lembab giler dowh service dier..nak patah 

kaki aku nak berdiri tgu..huhu..

abes je mkn..ktorg trus straight to pavilion..

one word..wow!...ramai giler org..huhu..crowded arr..

tp best gak la..hehe..rmai org..then jalan2 jap kat pavi..snap2 pic..

chow g KLCC plak..miahahah..xsabar nak pg klcc ne..sb KlCC la 1st place i go when 1st time smapai kat kl ne..best sgt la..hehehe..ktorg lepak kat taman klCC

yg mmg dah d agak ramai org sgt,,then masuk kat dlm suria klcc..jejalan japp..lepas tue nek transit balik..

kl sentral..nak pg Midvalley plak..nak rncng tgk wyg..tp smpai2 je..

 

 

kat mid..punyala ramai giler org dowh..huhu..xjadi la tgk wyg..

lepak mkn ABC special dowh..hehehe..

grace yg blnja..hehehe..abes je mkn..

balik arr ktorg..penat dowhh..tp best arr..hehee.

ne pic yg ktorg snap3...hehehe

.B.O.R.I.N.G.

huhu..boring3..apesal hidup nie semakin borin giler..hurmm..lame dah aku xupdate blog aku ne kan

dah nak berbulan dah kowt..byk je happen sejak kebelakangan ne..maner dgn assignment yg berlmbak nak buat

assignment tu..assignment nie..huhu

tp nama pun student uni kan so still has to face it..

cuma skg ne xda mood nak buat smua tue..CNY menjelang lagik..huhu

this year aku xbalik cny..1st time taw..huhu..slalunya time2 bgini la aku ngan member2 aku kuar..

arrggghh..xsuke..ni la disadvantage nyer stady jauh2 ne..dah xdpt balik..

stay kolej sorg2 plak tue..huhu..boring nak mampos..huhu

xpela i take this as a challenge for me to B.E.R.D.I.K.A.R.I..chewahhh

But i really2 miss my home..huhu..miss my dady.mummy n my kakak2 n abg2..

uwaaa...dah lama xcontact dorg sb trlalu buzy ngan keja ne..huhu..

aper ekk nak ckp lagik..huhu..oh ya..

aku tgk blog aku ne mcm suram semcm je kalo nak di bandingkan dgn blog2 kwn2 aku yg len..

so..aku nak update arr..nak fresh up kn dier..coz blog ne la tmpt aku meluahkan perasaan aku

n juga bila xpuas hati gak..hehehe

nak smart kan sket..supya lebi interesting arr..hehe

k la..i think that all kot for now..kalo boring2 tu comment2 arr k..

see u guys later.

choww...

.BeyoNd reMedy.

..haha..the title xda kena mgena dgn cerita yg nak dceritakan..saje2 je tue..^^..Fuhh..lame giler aku xhUngdape bLog aku ne..huhu..besala busy tahap la gaban..huhu..dgn exam dan test..kadang2 rasa menyesal plak sambung study..tetapi ape 0rg kate bila sesuatu kita mulakan kite kena tamatkan juga..so aku sabar jak la dan enjoy sementara bole..hheehe..hah!..nie nak cerita ne...selama ne aku menghilangkan byk dowh yg berlaku..haha..nak citer maner satu ekk..bg list la ek..wkaka....

1. Mass kat Holy family kajang(KLCC)

2. Explorace(karnival 17)

3.Exam2...huhu...

 

  

 

haha..tu la sedikit aktiviti yg selama ne aku mghilang..hehe..yg 1st tue mass kat HFK..kitorg dr CSSUPM..ader mass utk smua KLCC(KUALA LUMPUR COORDINATING COUNCIL)..berkumpul kat church kajang..CSSUPM handle bahagian koir..Mantap siot!!..haha.. lepas je mass,ktorg ader praise and worship plak..tetapi di batalkan sebab ader masalah...so kena buat games je la..Gmbr2 belum upload lagik..hehe..xsabar nak tgu ne...ok then,Explorace plak..kt0rg join explorace sempena karnival 17..best dowh!!..hahaha...tp penat giler..naik bukit..then turun bukit..fuhh!!..bertambah kurus sy ohh..hahaha...mantap si0t..hehe..tau x..gr0up ktorg kalah d0wh di sebabkan tersalah pergi checkpoint..wkakaka..padahal confident giler dah nie nak menang..hahaha..xpe kt0rg jumpa tahun depan lagik..hahahhaa...hah!!!..last exam2..part yg paling sy malas dan benci..huuhu..yg myebabkan kan muka ku mjadi Panda..huhu..xper2..dah nak cuti pun..hehe..cuti CNY..we have great plan ahead..hehe..nak pg SUnway Lagoon..hehee..or mayb nak pg lost world of tambun..hehehe..naa..Get ready KL for us..heheh...okla have a lot works to do..chow..hehe..enjpy s0me pic k..hehe..