.UnDefined.

deep inside my heart

i cryin deeply n shout loudly

i dunno what happenin to me

why this shud happen

why in my relationship

what i do wrong

i knee down for u

to 

forgive me for what im done

im doing this just because i love so much

shud i take all this pain

im a human

got feelin and heart

not a doll that u can throw away

and when u need me u take it back

im tired for acting like this

im not right and u not wrong

but 

i need u to speak with me

not silent all the time

how this relationship be happy

if both of us didnt talk

we shud be happy

not in pain like this

maybe im over about this

but

i love u so much

thats why im doing all this

i never want more

i just want ur love

show me

izit hard

i writing this

coz i dunno who else can understand for what i feel

i cant leave coz 

i love u so much

and

i dont want to leave u

but in the same time if we together

the relationship just like im alone in it

i always pray for both of us

the best way we can be

but maybe my pray is not been hear rite now

i tryin to fix what wrong in our relationship

u say im forcing my self to be with u

im not like that

if forcing my self

i already leave u so long time ago

u say just react normal

but

why u never forget about our previous fight

u say im a boring person

so why u stay with me

i give u space to find other people

its fine with me

rather u be boring with me

im tired with all our chapter in this relationship

to the point

im givin up my self

and

live by my own

but

i love u

thats the problem

if we just same after this

maybe its my fault

just i want u to noe that

im doing this

because 

i love u